on a scale of 1-10 by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
on a scale of 1-10
Pain cannot be measured Everyone’s grief is unique Just tell me how you feel Now tell me on a scale of one to ten how happy you are We’re all a little different No one really knows That doesn’t sound so bad But here’s your diagnosis on a scale of one to ten Do you feel driven by a motor Did you sleep less this week than last Have you thought of hurting yourself or others And how would you rate that inconvenience on a scale of one to ten Do you worry too much Have you worried about too many things Did you ever think it would be better to end it all And on a scale of one to ten how bothersome was that this month Did you see your doctor Did you take your pills Do you feel happy On a scale of one to ten do you feel happy
What did you parents give you?
Blue eyes? Brown hair? Height?
What was your inheritance?
Money? Power? Sight?
What did your parents give you?
Morals? Politics? God?
What was decided for you?
How to stand? How to shake? How to nod?
You were given a nice house,
You were gifted with good hearing,
You inherited big feet and intelligence,
You are only your parents, reappearing.
Your life was not earned, it was given,
Not one part of it made by yourself.
You did not choose your path, you did not know what to choose,
What makes up you was bought with your parents' wealth.
I wonder sometimes, when I'm alone with my thoughts,
What she'd be like if ever I met her.
This woman they see, when they all look at me.
Prettier, stronger, and better.
I think she'd have gold hair, as gold as the sun,
And eyes blue as the heart of the sea.
Too bad she's not here, no better woman.
Just me, and my thoughts. Just me.
Sometimes I catch it, a glimpse of her face,
When I'm passing a window or mirror.
But then I look again and she's gone,
It's just me, not her, that is here.
I'll bet her voice is like honey, her hugs like a blanket,
I'll bet you can lose yourself when she's near.
I wish I could meet her, this way better person,
Escaping Reality by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Escaping Reality
I woke up one morning, to a city on fire.
All smoke and ash and screams.
I closed my eyes to make it all go away.
And slipped into the peace of sweet dreams.
I woke again in an hour to find the problem had grown,
And all around me was dark and despairing,
I squeezed my eyes shut and curled up in my bed,
So tired, so tired, uncaring.
I felt the flames lick my face, felt the smoke in my lungs,
But I simply closed my eyes tighter.
The fire grew in intensity, shined through my eyelids,
The world became hotter and brighter.
I opened my eyes with a cry, and clawed at my throat,
For the smoke had started to strangle me.
Then it filled my eyes too
Male!UrsulaXAriel's Sister ch 3 by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Male!UrsulaXAriel's Sister ch 3
DAY FOUR
"Girls," Attina said slowly, clasping her hands and twisting them. "I have something to tell you."
Alana and Adella, her sisters closest in age, swam over to her. "Where have you been?" They demanded in unison.
Attina sighed, pushing past them and sitting on her bed with a huff, running her fingers through her hair. "Girls, please."
Aquata narrowed her eyes, turning to Andrina with a smirk as she added, "And where is your tiara?"
Attina rolled her eyes, pushing away from her bed and through her sisters. Arista grabbed her by the tail, keeping her from moving away. Attina spun to face her sisters.
Alana held up Attina's tiara wi
Male!UrsulaXAriel's Sister ch2 by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Male!UrsulaXAriel's Sister ch2
She lay on her side, staring with wide, bloodshot eyes at the wall in front of her. He lay on the other side of the bed, his back to her. It had taken hours, but she felt the last of his tentacles slide off of her. She breathed deeply, sliding slowly away. He frowned in his sleep, sensing her movement. He rolled over, throwing an arm and three tentacles over her form and pulling her back to him. She whimpered, squeezing her eyes shut.
"Shhh." He purred, his lips at her ear.
She tensed, shivering with the ferocity of the contraction of her muscles.
He sighed, brushing her thick hair aside to kiss her neck. "Shhh."
She bit her lip to keep f
She knelt beside the water and closed her eyes. "That's it..." She sighed. "I swear off men." She ran her fingers through her hair, pulling out the band that had held it back and throwing it aside. It settled for a moment on the surface of the river and slowly fell into the clear water. "They're all the same."
"Aw... That's hardly fair." Crooned a deep voice.
She shook her head and pressed her hands over her ears, bending over her legs and biting her lip. After a few moments, she sat straight and looked around. Seeing no one, she sighed and shook her head. "I must be going crazy." She slipped off her jacket and set it next to her as she lea
Flirting: Oblivious or heartless? by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Flirting: Oblivious or heartless?
Flirting
People think I'm bitter,
People think I'm blind,
When I don't notice someone 'flirting'
They need a reason why.
Maybe the reason I don't see it
Is I don't think I deserve it.
Maybe it's because I spend time
standing in front of the mirror
telling myself I'm not ugly.
Not that I'm pretty.
That I'm not ugly.
I'm a Eurocentric beauty,
Blonde, blue eyed and fair.
But when I look into a mirror,
I don't see much else there.
Not to mention all the jokes,
The little stings and jabs,
About how no one loves me,
God, do those words stab.
When I glare at a boy
Who's making a joke,
It's not cause I'm bitter
It's cause I broke.
I don'
Love Into Darkness - Khan X Reader ch6 UNHAPPY END by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Love Into Darkness - Khan X Reader ch6 UNHAPPY END
ALTERNATE-UNHAPPY-ENDING
And squeezed. He squeezed your throat tightly, throwing you against the control panel and pressing against you to crush even more air out of your lungs.
"You foolish girl!" He hissed, some of his spit hitting you face.
You coughed and sputtered, blood rushing to you face as you clawed at his hands. When your struggling grew weak, he threw you aside. He returned his attentions to Marcus and, as Carol watched in horror, began to crush the man's skull. When Marcus was dead, Khan blew the loose hair out of his face and sat in the captain’s chair. He smirked as Spock appeared on screen.
"My crew." Khan growled.
Love Into Darkness - Khan X Reader ch6 HAPPY END by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Love Into Darkness - Khan X Reader ch6 HAPPY END
HAPPY ENDING
But he did not squeeze. He regained control the instant his eyes met yours. Your gaze was steady, angry, and unafraid.
He frowned, not releasing you. "Why aren't you afraid?" He hissed.
You raised your chin, your throat pressing into his hands as it filled with your voice, "Fear would not help me." You whispered.
He tensed, his hands loosening. "In any case... I do not believe you are in any danger." His gaze softened as he dropped his hands to his sides, closing his eyes and taking a deep breath.
You looked up at him with concern as you took his hand in yours, pressing it to you stomach. His eyes fluttered open and he looke
on a scale of 1-10 by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
on a scale of 1-10
Pain cannot be measured Everyone’s grief is unique Just tell me how you feel Now tell me on a scale of one to ten how happy you are We’re all a little different No one really knows That doesn’t sound so bad But here’s your diagnosis on a scale of one to ten Do you feel driven by a motor Did you sleep less this week than last Have you thought of hurting yourself or others And how would you rate that inconvenience on a scale of one to ten Do you worry too much Have you worried about too many things Did you ever think it would be better to end it all And on a scale of one to ten how bothersome was that this month Did you see your doctor Did you take your pills Do you feel happy On a scale of one to ten do you feel happy
What did you parents give you?
Blue eyes? Brown hair? Height?
What was your inheritance?
Money? Power? Sight?
What did your parents give you?
Morals? Politics? God?
What was decided for you?
How to stand? How to shake? How to nod?
You were given a nice house,
You were gifted with good hearing,
You inherited big feet and intelligence,
You are only your parents, reappearing.
Your life was not earned, it was given,
Not one part of it made by yourself.
You did not choose your path, you did not know what to choose,
What makes up you was bought with your parents' wealth.
I wonder sometimes, when I'm alone with my thoughts,
What she'd be like if ever I met her.
This woman they see, when they all look at me.
Prettier, stronger, and better.
I think she'd have gold hair, as gold as the sun,
And eyes blue as the heart of the sea.
Too bad she's not here, no better woman.
Just me, and my thoughts. Just me.
Sometimes I catch it, a glimpse of her face,
When I'm passing a window or mirror.
But then I look again and she's gone,
It's just me, not her, that is here.
I'll bet her voice is like honey, her hugs like a blanket,
I'll bet you can lose yourself when she's near.
I wish I could meet her, this way better person,
Escaping Reality by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Escaping Reality
I woke up one morning, to a city on fire.
All smoke and ash and screams.
I closed my eyes to make it all go away.
And slipped into the peace of sweet dreams.
I woke again in an hour to find the problem had grown,
And all around me was dark and despairing,
I squeezed my eyes shut and curled up in my bed,
So tired, so tired, uncaring.
I felt the flames lick my face, felt the smoke in my lungs,
But I simply closed my eyes tighter.
The fire grew in intensity, shined through my eyelids,
The world became hotter and brighter.
I opened my eyes with a cry, and clawed at my throat,
For the smoke had started to strangle me.
Then it filled my eyes too
Male!UrsulaXAriel's Sister ch 3 by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Male!UrsulaXAriel's Sister ch 3
DAY FOUR
"Girls," Attina said slowly, clasping her hands and twisting them. "I have something to tell you."
Alana and Adella, her sisters closest in age, swam over to her. "Where have you been?" They demanded in unison.
Attina sighed, pushing past them and sitting on her bed with a huff, running her fingers through her hair. "Girls, please."
Aquata narrowed her eyes, turning to Andrina with a smirk as she added, "And where is your tiara?"
Attina rolled her eyes, pushing away from her bed and through her sisters. Arista grabbed her by the tail, keeping her from moving away. Attina spun to face her sisters.
Alana held up Attina's tiara wi
Male!UrsulaXAriel's Sister ch2 by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Male!UrsulaXAriel's Sister ch2
She lay on her side, staring with wide, bloodshot eyes at the wall in front of her. He lay on the other side of the bed, his back to her. It had taken hours, but she felt the last of his tentacles slide off of her. She breathed deeply, sliding slowly away. He frowned in his sleep, sensing her movement. He rolled over, throwing an arm and three tentacles over her form and pulling her back to him. She whimpered, squeezing her eyes shut.
"Shhh." He purred, his lips at her ear.
She tensed, shivering with the ferocity of the contraction of her muscles.
He sighed, brushing her thick hair aside to kiss her neck. "Shhh."
She bit her lip to keep f
She knelt beside the water and closed her eyes. "That's it..." She sighed. "I swear off men." She ran her fingers through her hair, pulling out the band that had held it back and throwing it aside. It settled for a moment on the surface of the river and slowly fell into the clear water. "They're all the same."
"Aw... That's hardly fair." Crooned a deep voice.
She shook her head and pressed her hands over her ears, bending over her legs and biting her lip. After a few moments, she sat straight and looked around. Seeing no one, she sighed and shook her head. "I must be going crazy." She slipped off her jacket and set it next to her as she lea
Flirting: Oblivious or heartless? by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Flirting: Oblivious or heartless?
Flirting
People think I'm bitter,
People think I'm blind,
When I don't notice someone 'flirting'
They need a reason why.
Maybe the reason I don't see it
Is I don't think I deserve it.
Maybe it's because I spend time
standing in front of the mirror
telling myself I'm not ugly.
Not that I'm pretty.
That I'm not ugly.
I'm a Eurocentric beauty,
Blonde, blue eyed and fair.
But when I look into a mirror,
I don't see much else there.
Not to mention all the jokes,
The little stings and jabs,
About how no one loves me,
God, do those words stab.
When I glare at a boy
Who's making a joke,
It's not cause I'm bitter
It's cause I broke.
I don'
Love Into Darkness - Khan X Reader ch6 UNHAPPY END by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Love Into Darkness - Khan X Reader ch6 UNHAPPY END
ALTERNATE-UNHAPPY-ENDING
And squeezed. He squeezed your throat tightly, throwing you against the control panel and pressing against you to crush even more air out of your lungs.
"You foolish girl!" He hissed, some of his spit hitting you face.
You coughed and sputtered, blood rushing to you face as you clawed at his hands. When your struggling grew weak, he threw you aside. He returned his attentions to Marcus and, as Carol watched in horror, began to crush the man's skull. When Marcus was dead, Khan blew the loose hair out of his face and sat in the captain’s chair. He smirked as Spock appeared on screen.
"My crew." Khan growled.
Love Into Darkness - Khan X Reader ch6 HAPPY END by rachelthepessimist, literature
Literature
Love Into Darkness - Khan X Reader ch6 HAPPY END
HAPPY ENDING
But he did not squeeze. He regained control the instant his eyes met yours. Your gaze was steady, angry, and unafraid.
He frowned, not releasing you. "Why aren't you afraid?" He hissed.
You raised your chin, your throat pressing into his hands as it filled with your voice, "Fear would not help me." You whispered.
He tensed, his hands loosening. "In any case... I do not believe you are in any danger." His gaze softened as he dropped his hands to his sides, closing his eyes and taking a deep breath.
You looked up at him with concern as you took his hand in yours, pressing it to you stomach. His eyes fluttered open and he looke
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Thank you for your favs, thank you for your watches, thank you for your comments and thank you for your support!
-
I'm sorry I'm not active as much as I could be. I know a lot of my stories have been dormant for a while and I could give you several reasons why, be it my ever-changing life or my unreliable computer that gets in my way, but I wanted to thank you all.
I usually make make a point of thanking every new watcher personally for the watch because it really does mean a lot to me, and I really do greatly appreciate it. However, seeing as I'm hardly even able to answer a couple comments every few months, I simply cannot keep up with t